Long Time No Sea (11/18/24)

Feeling: tired
Listening to: Heart of glass -blondie

Hi hello wow its been a while. sorry ive completely fallen off keeping shark punk updated since this summer ^^; irl has been super stressful lately with a terrible concotion of college, my cat dying, and family issues. i am so very tuckered out emotionally and physically -__- but! i really wanna get back on working on sharkpunk or at the very least making blog posts because i think its a nice outlit! looking at my notes from the summer i was planning to add the about me section next and i think thats still the direction id like to be headed, what is a personal site for if not to be marvolously self centred :P. plus honestly they are some of my favorite parts of other peoples sites! i love knowing about the wonderful folks behind the little sites ^^! after that i think i either wanna make my land of the lustrous shrine (since i recently did a reread and got freshly unwell about it) or a memorial page for my cat Otis. so many thoughts so little free time
transitioning to more personal stuff like i said earlier been having kinda a tough one recently and while i think im at the tail end of most of it ive been running on an empty tank for so long i think its finally getting to the point were its hard to hide? the hard to hide part means ive been really anxious when talking to most of my closer friends? for what its worth ive tried to still stay talking to people because self isolation is never good, its just hard telling people your doing bad. i realistically just need a break and new anti-depressants but i cant stop im already behind on schoolwork and cant afford to loose my grant. bleghh. some good things have been happening though! i got webfishing after a friend recommended it and spent like 3 very ill advised hours just fishing and doing lighthearted chatting and listening to people play music. webfishings almost DS or 3DS graphics in combination with being about fish makes it targeted at me specifically XD. it was nice to take a break and not worry for a bit. heres what my fisher looks like atm! if you see me around say hi!

i also majorly splurged and got myself a ticket to see MCR in seattle, i know there ticket prices were kinda insane and people were upset about that (me too) but ive loved there music since elementary school and its been on my bucketlist to see them since forever so it just felt worth it. considering it a birthday + christmas present to myself. im excited its gonna be my first big concert and my first time going to a concert alone! it feels like the first big adult move ive made (despite being 19 haha)! im kinda foolishly hoping i will be able to make a friend or something but who knows really :P.
Oh it happened a while ago but i need to gush about it, one of my friends listened to a music rec of mine and liked it! that seems like a stupid small thing but it made me so darn happy! expecially since it was one of my all time fav bands! my standards are in the ground and if someone takes time with something i love i will be endeared to them forevermore.
i think ive yapped enough for now. this was nice! i gotta remember to make blogposts more often